Daddy and mommy I love you!
Thank you for helping God to bring me here on earth~ Thank you for all the encouragements you all give when i'm sad and discourage. Thank you for loving me so much, thank for for disciplining me. When people praise us (ko, jie & me) it really shows how well you all have taught us. Though during those discipline times it wasn't at all fun but now we know what's it for and it really shows that the results are good.. =) Thank you for the love you all give. I'm really blessed to have you all as parents.
Dad, mom, i think i've been really selfish... reflecting on my days here in Manchester is like i've not done much... I really love dancing and serving in TOP but here it's really like not much achieve.. Pr peter has given me a chance.. he ask me to help plan something that would make people remember the Easter event.. well that's a new start aren't it.. I actually thought the service that i do in church was tiring.. but i really forgot the part that it makes me really happy and have a sense of achievement.. Over here.. with the lost of the title leadership i've been living a rubbish life.. previously in TOP is like you like it or not you are a leader so there are things that you should say and do and things that are just not right to do or say, but here... who cares.. some times i get really curious when people preach and say that we shouldn't live by the law but by grace.. does that mean there shouldn't be the dos and don't s? but anyway... i know there's people around me who is watching but most of the time i'm alone, even if i want to try showing a good deed or do something nice.. there's no one.. by the time i see humans.. i get to excited and just keep talking.. i forgot i need to be quiet at times and just listen.. ( memang lack of attention) haihz..
watching lots of show to fill up the watsoever .... sometimes skipping devotion.. yet.. my heavenly father never forgets me.. He still grants me my hearts desires, and tells me He forgives. I really couldn't understand how wide or how deep is the love He has for me.. dying for someone who most of the time taking Him for granted, using Him like a genie in a bottle, yet He never fails, He never fail to love me.. dad, mom, thank you for introducing me to Him since i was young. He cared for me and discipline me. If a storm comes right now, will i stand my ground, do i know him enough to stand firm? At times when the song sings, Lord i love you or Jesus i love you, sometimes i'll keep quiet not because i don't love him but because i know i can't do it, i don't wanna lie..
It's close to Easter, Pr Peter keep preaching that God has risen.. we need not live a live of defeat.... knowing is a thing but acting on it is another.. i'll try... really need some spiritual food to pump me up.. can't keep living like that.. cause it's going to kill me..
Dad and mom, thank you for everything.... I love you all and miss you all lots... i really want to be beside you all.. dad, i miss watching movies together... mom, i just miss disturbing you just to see the smile on your face.. =p.. when i get back well go out together kay.. use the time we have to the max ( within the time limit of kong kong's food time)=) kay?
had dimsum for luch just now and spent around 15 bucks for groceries, tomorrow afternoon have to meet up with the MAC team to discuss about Good Friday service =)
I love you all lots.. chaoz
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